"My name is Jessie and I am a person in recovery. My whole life I struggled with emotions, self love, knowing who I was, and accepting myself for every flaw and positive trait that made me. I tried anything to escape the thoughts and emotions. As a small child my first escape was food. The more the better and unhealthy choices were the only choices that I knew. Of course, the more I ate the heavier I got and the heavier I got, the more I hated myself which caused my disease of addiction to spiral out of control. In 2018 I had some time to sit down and look at myself and the first thing I noticed was how much weight I had gained. I weighed 300+ pounds. I didn't have access to sodas and I took a vow to not eat sweets. I also started a morning workout. Slowly I began to shed some weight. In July of 2018 I was introduced to a program that taught me how to look at every area of my life and how unmanageable each area was. The program also taught me that there is a God and that i don't have find power to move through each day with the help of unhealthy food and choices if I seek his help. It taught me that everything in my life was abnormal and nothing I knew from food to relationships were healthy. The people there taught me acceptance, accountability, honesty, and action. Today I have lost over 100 pounds but it's not anything I can take credit for! Everyday I have to ask the God of my understanding to give me the strength to take action to workout and also the strength to not choose the foods that aren't fuel for my body. Today, when my body talks to me, I understand it. That saying always confused me until I slowed down and started listening. It turns out even then my body was talking. Every ache, pain, shortness of breath, mental breakdown was because I wasn't doing anything to maintenance the vessel God created. Everyday I struggle with something whether it's the choice to eat right, workout, or follow the routine that helps me love myself the following day. Yet today, I can do things I couldn't do for so many years. I can run! I can keep up with my son! I can choose myself and my health first! I can look at myself in the mirror and most days I can love who I am!"